I went back to my post from the beginning of 2022, “My Intentions for 2022”. I had not gone back to read it since I wrote it. I don’t like to read what I write, which makes editing very difficult. I actually cringe when I edit a post. So, imagine my surprise when I read that post to find that my intention was to set seasonal goals and I was supposed to back throughout the year and check in and set new ones if needed. Obviously, that did not happen.
My intentions, goals, resolutions, whatever you want to call them for 2023 are to take care of me. The last few months of 2022 were really difficult. Lots of things were going on and I fell into an even deeper depression. There were outside forces that contributed to things but they wouldn’t have affected me if I was in a better place. I didn’t realize that I was in such a dark place. I’ve suffered from depression for as long as I can remember but this time around, I couldn’t see the light. I still can’t but I’m getting help and I’ll be ok.
That being said, I will not turn this into a blog about my depression. My focus this year will be to take care of me - spiritually, mentally, and physically. I want to focus more on writing and reading more books. I want to truly discover the things that make me happy, that satisfy me. I want to find the beauty in all of the chaos that happens in everyday life. This year will be about fresh starts and new beginnings. It will be a tough journey but I’m really hoping to discover new things about myself and become a stronger person. Stronger for myself, my kids, my husband, and my family.
So as David and Alexis Rose say, “It’s my turn to take a selfish.”
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